Yesterday's rehearsal was bad. Very bad. I played badly, I did not listen carefully, I was too PROUD. And I'm not saying anything else.

But it was a real eye-opener. Saw what people my age are capable of. And when I think of myself. Hahaha. Long way to go, and I don't know if I'm ever going to get where I want to be.

Where do I wanna be anyway?

It's so hard to pen down my ideas. They're overflowing in sudden bursts that come to mind that I just want to hum it out but it isn't enough. So work I shall.