The trek yesterday killed my feet man!! From Bukit Timah to Mandai Zoo.. Damn far. In the rain. And my shoes were too small for me, and the soles were way too thin. Feet really hurt a lot.. Was walking into Bukit Timah, from my house!!! Haha! I live so close to it. Yeah, then saw a group of friends pon-ing!!! Won't name who here, though they're probably found out already, but it wouldn't be very nice. Yep, so they told me to pon with them, but I thought against it cuz I'm a good boy!! Haha! =P

So we hiked.. Everybody was taking out umbrellas and raincoats. I took out mine only when we got to an open space for a break. Otherwise I'd get totally drenched. Before that open space right, there was this really really really slippery slope and it claimed a lotta fallen victims. Haha! Wei Xiang was carrying my bag for me cuz I let him have the umbrella then he fell, but managed to save my bag in time.. Just a small patch of mud, so its quite ok. I rock k, no other part of my body except my feet touched the ground. Yeah! Oh, and my hands to pick up fallen stuff sometimes. Was coping fox sweets off Bing Cheng! Then I saw them take the wrapper and try to whistle with it. And I took and blew really loud!! My ears were ringing.. Yeah, then they started asking me how to blow that loud, so I told them. It's quite easy I guess. Just hold the wrapper taught and not too long, so there's a higher frequency.. All the physics. Yep. Then after that we started to blow with our hands!! You know how you cup your hands together, like you're praying, then leave a hole between your thumbs and blow. Haha! Then we started to blow songs.. Heineken advertisement.. School songs.. Haha! So lame! Had another stop under a flyover. There were these holes in the soil and Mr Tan said that it's probably and-lions. Somebody brought Pringles. Guess I don't have to elaborate on this part. =)

Oh. Rui Hong was really sway. Think he and Nigel were scuffling for and umbrella.. Then I think it gashed his temple. Blood. A lot. Ouch. But he's ok. Saw him today.

Reached the zoo and ate at KFC. Was really hungry! We were quite pissed for walking all the way into the zoo from Mandai Road, cuz we'd have to back-track out to take bus. But it was worth it I guess, cuz of the food and the toilet! Haha! After eating, changed, sprayed some cologne cuz I really stank, and went Cine!! Haha! Played pool! Really fun! And they were playing really nice songs like Maroon 5 and I started 'dancing' and looking lame! Haha! Hyper what. Then played some lan. CS. Then came home..

Fell asleep reading the Louis Cha. Haha. Mom told me she had to pry the book from my hands and put my phone on the sideboard. Sorry for not replying!!

Then TWOday. Haha!

Went to school, had assembly.. Cleaned the classroom. Rather. Other people were cleaning, me and Yong Keong ran off to a corner and played chess! Ha! Aiya. I'm SO careless. Sighness. Then when Shieh asked us where we were, I said toilet. Haha! I'm evil! Had to carry some extra tables away the drama centre in the end though. Far! Heavy!

Then slacked around at the 2nd level of KK Hall wiating for rehearsal. Played chapteh and cooled off at the LT4. They were repairing some IT equipment so they left the air con on. Then sat down and started crapping round. Talking cock. Then waited ALL the way to 2pm, then Calvin called Goh, and Goh said that there's NO practice cuz of staff dinner! Whatever!! Idiot!! I'm looking forward to next year man.. Ha..

Had nothing to do so went to play ping pong with orch guys. Played until 6 then Zheng Wei fetched me home again. That's 3 times in a week! Haha! Yayyy! I'm quite surprised my ping-pong's not all that BAD. Still quite ok lah.. Maybe I'm just tyco today. Ha!

Yep. So I gotta go. It's been a long time. About the Ashlee Simpson song.. I put it there cuz I really fell so fast. For the greatest love ever. 15 years of reckless living. Over after 50 minutes. Wish it'd been sooner. Then there're so many things that wouldn't have happened.. So many that would have. But. I'm still lucky. Daarn darn darn lucky lucky lucky. So yep I'm thankful. Cuz nothing, nothing can ever get me down now. NOTHING! Wahahahahha! This rocks! Really.

How people can be so cold after everything.. I don't get it. Why? I mean. There's no need for it, right? There's no need for all the ice.. All the bad words behind my back.. The exaggerations.. I've experienced what you can do.. And I feel it now. Maybe it's just false premonition. But I hear. The slander. The mocking laughter alongside. And I see. Those contemptous looks. I've got nothing to hide behind cuz I never realised that one day I'd have to. Oh yes. I have one thing. And I wanna share it soon.

But not yet.

I'm haven't reached there yet.

Haha. That's over. So. Actually I'm feeling quite hyper!!

ASHLEE SIMPSON - Pieces Of Me

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's a mission
And you won't stop til I'm there
Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tellOhhhhhI love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

Yeah!! Haha! Stuck in me now. Ok, I taaaaake it aaaaallllllllll back! Everything I said bout Ortus Carnival. Cuz it really. Rawked. Haha! Sigh!! Feel quite bad about it. But. Raaah!!!! It was damn fun!!

(Haha. Yeah. That's another thing. So many things I've said.. That I shouldn't have. Wish I never ever did. So. For those I've hurt, those I'm hurting, and those I'm gonna hurt in the future. Just come up to me and slap me round the face k. I.. Donno what to say, really.)

At first was slacking around.. Then cooked some of the Campbell soup. One batch. That was quite fun. Then I went down to the DJ bench, and became one!! Hell yeah!! Damn fun! Played all the really reallayy niceee songs! Was screwing up with the equipment a little while at first, then got the hang of it, and got Tristan's and Edward's trust, then fun time!! Woohoo! Yuppo. But it's a really busy job. Gotta take care of all the dedications.. Locate the songs.. Line them up.. Find new songs.. Tough! But handled it pretty well I guess. Sweet! I only spent $1!! Haha! Cuz there was the compulsory $2 coupon.. Then got another free extra one from nick, and bought got another $1. So. Actually I spent $5 lah. But paid only 1!! =P Spent all of it on ice-cream and the soup, cuz I cooked ittt!!!

Sigh. But got pissed off today by that damn teacher lah.. Dunno what's his problem. I turned up for games day, had witnesses, and he even TALKED to me on that day. Then because the faggot secretary incompetently failed to mark my attendence, I kena. Fine whatever. I'm not gonna dwell on this. Cuz if I do, I know I can get him screwed upside down cuz of all my alibi. Idiot. One day.. One day I'm gonna come back and take it out man. Maybe.

But I'll tolerate. Tolerate. "REN"

Eh, bloody shit!! I was there for Games Day lor!! Double yoo tee eff!! Screw man. Seriously lah. It’s like so many people can be my ailibi lah. And that son-of-a-bitch Tan bloody saw me there lah. Idiot leh. Just making things hard for me after 2 bloody years.

Bastard.

Anyway. Was pissed with myself yesterday lah!! Really pissed off. I don’t know how sometimes I can be just so ungrateful. I really must try to get rid of the past.. Even today. Somehow. I just let my feelings wash over me.. Felt paralyzed. Had to dig up so much effort to turn, and make it go away.. Sigh. I need the help.. Please.

Ortus Carnival is a bunch of bullshit, really. Ong didn’t even consult us before organizing this crap. And we’re stuck with it. We set up stalls with OUR money, and we GIVE away the income. Totally sick. I have resolved not to spend a single cent except the compulsory 2 bucks on the goddam thing. It’s really lame lah. I mean a sane person would foresee that the whole thing’s gonna be a darn flop. Nobody’s gonna entertain us lah. I’ll bet on that. Haha!

Which reminds me. Sectionals today was a darn flop too. Won’t go into details. But it’s the usual lah. Just all talk cock and no work done. Cracking really ahem jokes and I’m quite appalled.. Bleaurgh. It’s gotta stop, argh. Time to undo what I’ve woven.

I don’t quite get it. So now after all that I’ve done, all the effort I’ve put in, I’m just an idiot lah. Cuz I’m always the one at fault right? I’m not asking noone to share the blame. All I’m saying is that please don’t take it out on me, cuz I’m not doing that to you. I. Have. Never.

Ever.

Leave it, no more.

In the heat of
Summer Sunshine
I miss you, like nobody else
In the heat of
Summer Sunshine
Blah blah blah.

Hahahaha! That's all the lyrics to the song that I remember. It's stuck in my head now!!
So nice! I'm gonna be a Corrs fan!! Hahaha.. Last time I heard it was last last Sunday! Then me and david were trying to sing. Guess it turned out terribly. But oh well. We're not chao akuas ok!! Hee! It's still here.

Hmm hmm hmm. Where do I start? Haha! I don't have much time cuz I wanna sleep! Hmm. Sunday.. Nothing much lah. Went for the first church emsemble rehearsal.. It was crap. Ten times worse than TO.. Bleah.. And its like.. Sigh. I wanna quit. The concert clashes with my other one anyway.. Dunno. This is something I'll have to pray about..

Then came home and finished off 'AK'! Haha! It's not really that fantastic a book. But it sounded interesting. And I didn't wanna leave it half-read so I sped-read through.. Ok lah.. So so. Shallow use of language.

Today.. Bleah. Had this really dumb course on 'Personal Grooming'?!?!! Like whut da hell. I don't need nobody to teach me that buncha crap. And half the time we were talking bout color schemes.. Such mundane stuff. Boring. Slept. Snore.. =)

Then lesson!!! Ok, fine fine. I didn't practise. Been too caught up with violin and I'm not so sure whether I wanna drop it anymore.. I'll see I'll see. Yeah, so anyway Ernie and I just talked through the lesson. Oh my gosh..!! Found out so many things I never knew! Haha. But that's the past, when we were under the spell of the world.. And it's now that matters. And I'm thankful!! God, help me. I pray. Yep. Lessons rockk!!

Yo-yo ma is crazy. CRAZY!! That idiot.. Grr.

Who wanna watch Sibelius and Glazunov with meeeee... Anybody? Haha!

Raah! Got pissed today!! Mom was in a bad mood today.. Cuz of last night. Was on the phone too late. Nvm. It's okaayy.. Really. Then. Went to CCAB and found out there was NO TO!!!! ZhiXiangg!!! Grr!!.. I'm gonna kiillllllll yooouu!! Urgh. Hahaha. Stupid me.

Was at the Yong Siew Toh thingy, with all those violins.. And one viola and one cello. My gaaawwd... They're just so niiice!! Weeeh! I want!!! :'( Sigh! They really sound so good ok.. But the funny thing is I realised Stradivari aren't such wonders anymore.. The one I liked was by some not so famous maker, forgot the name.. Aha.. Or maybe it's cuz that Strad wasn't a good one. I don't know. Haha. It's so amazing k.. Seeing SO SO SOOO many good violins up there.. And it's so kek-sai also.. Take one look at my violin and viola and.. SIGH. Alexander Souptel kept playing the Tzigane over and over again at the demonstration thingy.. Haha.. Then after that some other guy played it again with piano accompaniment. So anti-climax rights. There was one point where Souptel spammed too much and a bow hair popped out, and everybody started laughing. It's quite rude lah I guess.. And I thought there wasn't much to laugh about anyway. Nevermind. Thought the pieces were really well done. Beethoven String Quartet in F, Beethoven violin/piano Sonata No. 9, Tzigane, Carmen Fantasie and this encore piece.. Thought the violist in the quartet was really hamchi!!! Haha! Couldn't really hear her.. Quite sad.. And the cellist was quite out here and there.. But the violins were good. The sonata was quite brutal I think. The spiccatos were too heavy.. More bite than sound. Tzigane was over-played! Thanks Souptel. But only the introduction lah. Then the technical stuff. Thought it was ok.. But I didn't really like the piece anyway. Carmen Fantasie was really good ok! Like, woah! Sounds retarded at times but it was still really good.. Encore piece was ok. Yeah.

Wanted to buy that book they were selling. Sounds interesting. But it's 30 bucks and I'm short of cash cuz of too much Venezia.. So.. Didn't buy.

Went off to Marina Square after that with all the violists! Haha! Viola power! Was trying to pull Ernie along but didn't manage to in the end. He's driving a van!! Haha! Yeah! I think vans are cool ok. They're cheap and they can store things! Vans rockk!! So Yeap. Some of them came to the concert without dinner so they went to eat. Was hungry too so bought a Whopper Meal at BK. Got a lift from Zheng Wei home.

Just wanna go back to my old self.. But I know it's not right.. But.. It seems so right. I dunno. Can't find a direction yet.. But most likely.. I'll go on with my new path lah. Have to pull away.. Shit man. I need so much to do that.. Don't know how to.. When so many people who matter to me are in my way.. Bleah!!

Bugger. Left hand's crap. Can't type.. Ache.. And the world's swirling around in my mind man.. Dizzy! Think I needa go sleep soon. Argh.

Been going out out out these few days. Not a few.. But rather for so long liao. Haha. It's good cuz it keeps me busy and I won't think too much. Can't help but feel depressed sometimes. With such horrendous results.. Like. Ugh Man. *Slaps my face* Shouldn't think too much.

Back Here - BBMak

Baby set me free
From this misery
I can't take this no more
Since you went away
Nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you , need you so
Until you're back here, baby
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies
Even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl, I promise you
Now my love is true
This is what I'm living for
Coz here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS

And I wonder
Are you thinking of me
Coz I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life

Coz here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS

NICEEEE SONG!! Haha! Was out when I was P5, P6? And it came on radio yesterday! After so long! And it brought back all those memories.. With the Grey Group and everything.. I wanna bring back all those times we had man! With WenYi, ZuoJing, Kong Aik, YongLian, Stephanie, Kristen, Su Khine, Alvin!!! And, haha, Kian Hong. Sometimes. Yeah guys! If you're reading this we've got to have a get-together someday ok!! Really miss all of you.. All of you together as one again. Just like we were before..

Memories..

Clocked in about 3 hours today. And most importantly it was productive!! Hahahaha.. Yay! Ermmhmm. Ha.. It's just fun lah k. And my fingers don't hurt that bad anymore. Which is pretty cool. Pretty cool.

So now I'm gonna be the bad guy. I'm gonna be the asshole. I never thought.. Never. Didn't cross my mind a single time until.. Poof. It's in my face. Sigh. Ok, I know it doesn't matter. But. Sometimes I just wished that life wouldn't be so hard on me. You know. Having those CLOSEST things turn on you and you realise that it's all been faked. It's like. Shit man. My life's a lie. And now I'm stuck with it.. Cuz I just can't seem to shake it off. Urgh, and I'm getting thrown around by the bloody Prince of The World. The Fallen Angel. Yeah. And I can't help it but complain a little.. Cuz I've done what I'm supposed to do already. And I'm here to claim my promise.. But I just don't see it coming.. Yet. Maybe. Yeah I gotta trust with all my heart that I'm in safe hands. Cuz I know I am.

I don't understand. Why would someone I don't even know backstab me.. And so hard too.. And. I never knew. Never knew until things are way beyond my control. Slip ups one after another. Why'd you wanna do that to me? I never ever did.. What you said I did. I never. Haha. But. Defending myself won't make a difference anyway. And. It doesn't matter.. I guess. If it's not meant to be then its not meant to be. Cuz I've found greater treasure.

Anyway. Eee... Fingers feel like breaking again.. Was stuck in school for 6 hours plus on monday. So I just played my viola most of the time.. Fooled round with the double-bass and cello also! So.. Yeah.. Will get back again at practising later. No stamina..

Hee. Been pigging out at Venezia's these past two days! Haha! Ice cream just rocks. I got some Creamo in muh freezer but Venezia's soooooooo much better! Hahaha! And fat-free too. But. Sigh. It's burning a hole in muh pocket!! Raaah!

Yeap. My results really really suck!!!! Oh sigh. It's dissapointing.. But. Oh well. I'll shake it off.

Seriously.. I find nothing wrong in putting up complaints on the PSB. It's like, I don't find the complaints there unconstructive. They're there to let the school administration know how screwed it actually is. And some problems have really such obvious solutions to them that we don't really have to put them down for you don't we. Like, for example. We say that there is a deficit of water-dispensing contraptions (otherwise known as water-coolers and/or taps) in the school. The obvious solution is to install more of them isn't it. I mean. Do we have put it down in black and white for you? You have a brain right. You know what we're suggesting right. Funny that these people are the one's educating the future of our nation.

You know what. Our future looks bleak.

And you know what.

I don't care.

Haha. Who gives a shit.

Hello! Just realised something big today.. It's been hanging there in front of me for so long, but I just didn't wish to hold on to it. And now I've realise how much more it brings. More than anything, anyone else can ever give to me.. It's Christ. I've realised nothing else matters. And all I want to do now is let go of everything.. So that I lose my attachment to this world and live in him fully. And everything that I do, everything that happens.. Just everything.. Will turn out ok cuz he's there. And he'll never, ever let me down. And that's where I start to let go.. And that's where I begin to sleep peacefully at night. How can I describe this? I can't..

But I still wish that everyone else could feel this happiness.. It's so sad.. Sigh.

So maybe my results have turned out to be shit. But. You know what. I'm gonna be ok. And I know it. What's a hundred years compared to eternity.

I wanna go home.

Haven’t blogged for long.. Just.. Didn’t feel like it. Funny how God sends people to you.. Even strangers who you have never met before in your life.. They just pop in and make a difference when you’re down. Wow. Pretty cool. I’ve pretty much found my groove. Never realised I had it. Comes naturally! But. That’s pretty not much I want anyway. But, anything goes lah. =P Bet you all dunno what I’m talking about.

Was out. The whole day. Just came back. Lanned. First time after so many months! Just had the craving suddenly. Wanted to go yesterday but things didn’t turn out well.. Watched White Chicks. Tell you, it’s damn damn funny k! Like.. Haha! SOOOOOO FUNNY! Had a really great time. Then went grandma’s place.. Watched tv. Soccer. The Liverpool vs Fulham comeback. Oh my god. Liverpool was 2-0 down after half-time, and when the match ended they won 4-2! So crazy right. Liverpool’s under-performing! It’s so sad! They were like so pro before Houllier came along and screwed things up until this state. Sighness. Real Madrid’s dying now too. Bleah!

So traumatic.. Something that’s been giving strength all my life.. All it brings now is fear.. Uncertainty. And sadness. So hard not to break down in front of everybody!!! Nobody will ever understand. But no-one needs to anyway. I’ve got this source of power. Someone guess what it is.
My 2.5 year old nephew.. He’s not exactly growing well.. I mean. He’s very big-sized for his age.. But he’s still not speaking yet.. Worried.. Tears. Oh, wth.

Sometimes I can get so pissed with mom.. But I know she just needs someone.. Like everyone else.. Sometimes I wish I could talk to her.. But she’s making things so difficult with her ‘im-thy-mother’ attitude.. Nvm.

Thanks guys! Great to know you’re there! No matter what they do, what they say, I know I’m gonna pull through! I know I can!

Urgh. I'm so caught in the middle of everything I hardly have time to breathe. It's so hard to please. I don't wanna take sides, I don't wanna be the betraying asshole. I just wanna be myself. I've sneaked my way through loopholes so many times now.. How long will the luck last?

Was down swimming today.. And saw a cloud towards the East. It was beautiful.. Light orange.. Close to yellow. In the blue sky. It was a cloumbus I think. Swam another two laps and came back.. But the cloud had drifted behind another dark grey one. A columbus cumulus. Or something like that. Can't remember my geog book. But I missed it fading away.. Wished I'd stayed on and watched its passing.

How many more chances do I want to throw away?

Things that I treasure.. They deserve much better treatment.

Gonna stop blogging bout what I ate, what time I shat and how many gulps of air I've had in a day. Huess its boring. Anyway.

There was once a king if a great, magnificent castle. In it, his subjects ate, drank, and made merry all day long. 'Discontentment' was a word of taboo.

Then one day, the king decided to sprite things up a bit. He called upon his messengers to bring an announcement out to his people over his land. He was inviting musicians into his abode.

Not long after, two violinists showed up. The king took a long look at both at them and said to them, "I give you each a month. When that month is up, come back to me. All I require is for you to play something in tune."

The month came and went.

Both musicians presented themselves before the king once more. The king asked, "Who shall be first?"

The first man jumped up, brandishing his ancient violin of a make long lost. No other violin carver that existed could match the skills of the one who had once flexed his scapels on that block of maple wood. He tuned his violin hurriedly. After all, taking a long time to tune was a sign of mediocrity and unprofessionalism. But in his haste, he tuned his G a quarter tone lower. Then he commenced with a self-composed sonata.

His playing was flawless. Ricochets, saltandos. Vibratos, glissandos. Every note melded together to form an entrancing, captivating piece. It was a wonder he had actually composed it within a month. The sound of wondrous music wafted through the palace, and out of it, and every commoner passing-by outside who heard his playing was filled with awe by his talent. Of course, being highly-skilled, he covered his out-of-tune G with deft and nimble fingers. But in the last chord, his finger slipped, and he played a note a quarter tone too low.

"Nevermind, I played well throughout. I'm sure the king won't mind," he thought, "If he can even notice." And and that last idea, he chuckled under his breath, confident of his success.

Then came the second man's turn. He took up his violin. It was a horrible instrument. The strings were close to unravelling, the varnish had either lost its shine, or had been scratched off through years of usage. The bridge was half broken and the bow had lost almost half it's hair. It was quite obvious that this man came from a much more unfortunate background than the former.

Sheepishly putting his violin under his chin, he started to tune. A minute passed. Then two more. The first man started tapping his feet on the marble floor in impatience, and shook his head at the performer's unshowmanship.

Finally, he was ready. He took a deep breath, lifted up his bow up high, then brought it down, and played..

An open G.

And it was in tune.

It is so easy.. Why.. Why can't you open your hearts?

Bring back the past.. Cuz I just can't see a future. Where did it all go? I can only find comfort in those things that are just memories.. And assumptions.. Doubtful promises. I don't understand anything anymore.. Maybe it's my fault. and if it is, I don't even know what's wrong with me.. What happened? I don't know.. Really. None of you know what I'm talking about. No one can understand.

Neither do I.

Bring Me To Life EVANESCENCE

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)s
ave me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Been having this low-down stupid feeling for so long already.. And I'm really sick of it. Fills me so much stupid pointless emotions. Maybe I should let it all go right. Would it be better. Don't even have time and energy to think. Bbbb--bbb---bbb. Harley engine. Catalytic converters. I'm going crazy. Think I am already..

Heya.. Nothing to blog about actually.. Just had chinese compo.. It was a killer man. Kk. Better go now. Can't waste anymore time.

Let go some..