Wah.. Got blasted by parents today.. 'Cause I stayed up last night to watch England vs Potugal. Oh what the hell. Beckham's penalty was just SO loser-fied.. My eyeballs almost popped out when I saw him send the ball whizzing way over the crossbar.. Now England's out. Geez. Oh well. Time for Plan B. Support France! Hahaha! But anyway. Parents were digging out everything to scold.. My end-of-term report.. It had all nasty comments from EVERY teacher bout me not hading in my work. Haha! And that I've been slacking this whole holidays away without doing anything related to the word "academics". Lucky I had a strings rehearsal today man. Otherwise get nagged at until my eardrums go bust. So went there and had "sectionals" which I completely slacked away with.. Just too tired lah. And I was writing down fingerings for the section. Took my time with it. Heheh. Then we had combined. Yesh! Viola section screwing up the least again! Yeah! *Pats chest* We just rock the world man. Haha! =P Ended quite early. Too early for dinner. So we played soccer. Like duh right. Haha! Got a blister 'cause I played barefoot. Didn't wanna mutilate my new nike shoes. They're ex ok! So yeah. Then went down to coronation plaza. Met Marcus when playing soccer, and he went eat with us. He was going the drama thing later. Joked and laughed and acted like whackos all the way. That's what I call "bonding" man. So yeah came home, parents kinda sizzled down already. Phew. Mugged. Really. I'm not lying. I did! Yeah! So proud of myself. Guess I'm gonna sleep. Tired. Soccer. Whee.

Too tired to blog yesterday.. Went to this place called "Jade Palace" for a steamboat buffet with my bro and mom.. Ate like a pig man.. Pig.. *winks* Haha. Then went Bukit Timah Shopping Centre to play pool with my bro. I'm under-aged but I don't really care anyway. Heh heh. Real fun.

Today.. Went Ikea for breakfast. Dad took leave. He's taking leave until sunday. Then we came home.. And then I slacked.. And then went Beauty World for dinner.. Came home.. Slacked.. Slack slack slack.

Haha.

You know I've thought about it. And I realised how proud I actually am of my viola section. They're people who I've talked and laughed with, and had fun cursing each other, over sectionals.. People who I can trust that they won't tell on me when I point my middle-finger at Goh behind his back.. I've watched them grow.. Improve. Not only in playing.. But now I even see a change of attitude.. Maybe for the time being? But I hope not. Feel quite honoured that I've been given a chance to lead them.. Haven't done anything much so far.. Feel the urge to change that.. Because they've unknowingly taught me confidence. Eradicated my fear of playing out.. Improved my sight-reading tremendously.. Really. All this I wouldn't cultivate if I never played with them.. Thinking whether my past decisions have been mistakes. But best to treasure and not regret. Yeps.

Gonna practice!

You'll pull thru this dear..
Juz know my heart's bleeding wif you
All the way k?

Hey guys I'm back. Came back yesterday but was too tired to blog.. Crazy. Slept at 5am the second night.. Was telling ghost stories.. Somebody brought a laptop which had a wireless modem. And you know what? He managed to hook up onto some nearby house's modem! Damn cool! Haha. I know it was damn bad of us.. But.. Haha.. We hecked care. Could have blogged then, but everbody was prancing round the comp.. No privacy how to blog right. So yeah. Nights were filled with talking crap, playing cards, listening songs on discman.. And days were filled with sleeping (yes, sleeping!) basketball and soccer.. Yep. Hahaha! Of course there were the camp activities lah.. But being the bochup one they didn't really strike me.. Hee. But there was one thing.. Really got me thinking bout my life.. Renewed my will to change the way I am.. Argh. It's just so easy to fall.. But no matter. Try again right? Haha. And camp brought back a hell lotta memories. Bad ones.. But. Wth. They're behind me now. Have so much to look forward to now.. So yeah. But I know they'll arise again.. When I'm at my weakest.. They'll be back to haunt me.. For the rest of my life.. But no. Not now. Ha. Yup. Today.. Woke up at 12. Damn late. Then slacked my day away again.. Oh shucks.. Hols are only one week left.. Still got so much shit to do.. MRP for one. Ugh. Haha.
Gonna practice now.. sleep early again.

Real damn thankful that i can be
The person next to you.

Ok. Leavin tmr.. Back on sunday.. Packed all my stuff in 10min. Just dumped everything into my bag. lah. It's only 3 days.. Haha! Gonna leave halfway and go back on saturday for TO and viola lesson. So yep. Cya guys!

Smile k?
Haha. Love it when you do.
;)

Hey. So late. Haha. Everybody's asleep.. Yup. Woke up at 12. Cuz I talked until 3.15 yesterday?! I'd better stop this man. Was supposed to meet RISE guys at 12.15. So that gave me 15minutes to get to S-11. Jesus. Haha. Took the WRONG bus, cos I didn't know 852 had changed route. Or had it? Not really sure. But anyway, got off the bus and found 13 which brought me to RI. Didn't eat lunch with them as planned.. Just went straight to the astro-turf. Haha. Lamed round for an hour.. Anyhow lick the ball.. Then at 2 those buggers left for rehearsal so poor me went to S-11 for Ban Mian alone. Haha. My bro introduced it to me last time. Cuz of 3rd-lang. I used to take Jap. Have quit already. But anyway, the 3rd-lang centre is real close to RI, so I'd meet my bro, and we go eat Ban Mian. Haha! It's good. Anway, after my lonesome lunch, went to take a walk at J8, bought some stuff. Yup. Came home, "mugged" and practiced. Then went to sleep. Yes, and woke up again. Haha! I guess I'd better go back to bed where I belong.

Loveyou x infinity

Day's are pretty much quite boring now.. Stay home.. Slack.. But I don't really mind lah. Being able to sit down and just do NOTHING is quite a luxury. Haha! Hmm. Talked on the phone until like 2.30 yesterday?! Or rather today. Ha. Gonna wear a Morrison shirt and go RI play soccer tmr! Haha! Whee.

Goodnight dear!
Love you.

Hey guys! Havent blogged for quite a while. On sat it was because of euro.. Watched portugal and greece. Got really disgusted after the 1st half and didn't bother to watch the rest. Portugeese just throwing away all their chances like that.. Oh well. Anyway I want england to win lah.. I dunno why either. But it's definitely not because of beckham. (His dribbling is pathetic!) And I know it's quite impossible right.. Oh well. Violist. Yesterday night I stayed up late doing something real lame. Jap chess. With my bro. Until 1. Kee-siao right. Haha! Violist. We sorta got into a craze these few days.. Always gettin trounced by him.. Grr.. Haha. Yup. Been slacking these days away lah. Church camp on Friday.. Sigh. Sian.. A little lah.

Still cant believe this..
Like it's all a dream or something..
Cuz it's really too good to be true.
But nope.
It's true.
That's why I wake up every morning
Feeling happy.

;)

Juz came home, bathed. I stank man. Went BP Plaza, some people played bowling. I played pool. Lost one game, thrashed opponent in the other.. Haha. Then succumbed to boredom and went to lan for the first time in half a year. Haha. Played CS. Was real surprised that I rose quickly to be the top fragger. Haha! Namely because the people there were quite useless lah.. Picked them off easily with AWP.. Haha. Skills have deteriorated a tad also.. But had fun lah. Then went down to the NTUC and bought the sausages. We didn't use them at the bbq in the end though. Wasted effort. Realised my friends had left me behind0 already, all alone. So I went to take a bus. BUT. Took the wrong one. When I realised it, it was too late cos the bus had already taken the wrong turn. Well, walked all the way back and took the right bus this time. Carrying those sausages. Which we didn't use. Ugh. Haha. Yep, got to Goh's house quite sweaty. Played ping-pong. Got thrashed. And when I got the hang of it, thrashed. Heehee. Still remember all those killer spins my pa taught me. But I can only serve lah. After that im quite a flop. The bbq didn't turn out very well.. Cos we didnt know how to light a fire, nor how to make it last. In the end Goh's maid took two large platters of chicken wings and one whole pot of fishballs & sausages and cooked them with a stove. Haha! But still had myself stuffed. Phew! (Rubs my bloated tummy) Sometime in the middle of the thing, we realised we were out of drinks, so me Lenard and Jun Jie walked down to the cold storage at railway mall and bought some. Only sprite ice and 7up ice, cos all "ice" drinks rock! Haha! Bought more marshmallows. Opened a pack right there and then, and by the time we'd got back to the house, only half a pack was left. Haha! We're gonna get diabetes.. Haiz.. Did something REAL REAL STUPID later on.. So sorry.. Don't be too mad at me k? Plsplspls.. =( Stopped along the 7eleven at railway mall again as I was coming home. Bought a slurpee. Real thirsty man.. Even after all that sprite ice. Burp. =D Was talking crap and laming round with Wai Peng, Joseph, Albert (these three all violists. Yeah!) and Calvin (cellist. yeargh. =P). Yep. That's it. Gonna sleep. SO TIRED! Haha. G'night everybody.

Treasuring you..
More and more.
Till I wanna burst liao..
Good night k?
=)

Had this meeting today.. Planned tmr. We're havin a TCHS string orch outing tmr.. Going to Bukit Panjang Plaza then Goh's house for a bbq. Im bringing sausages.. Lalala. Haha! The easist of the lot!! ;P Yup. Finished off Kate&Leopold. Nice! Haha. Gonna be sleepin.. Real tired..

When I rotate my wrist it hurts.. Stupid scales.. Argh.. Oh well.

Lovin you!
So much..

These 3 days i've been stayin up pretty late. You know why? 'Cause on monday I dropped by at esplanade library and borrowed a few dvds.. Haha! And on that night I watched patriot. It was pretty nice, but the ending was quite sad cuz a lotta main characters got killed. Oh well. Laz night, planet of the apes.. It sucked. Downright crap. Urgh, wasted 2-plus hrs watching it. It made no sense at all. And the acting was pretty lousy too. Turd. Anyway, tonight I just watched silence of the lambs. Anthony Hopkins rocks my ass man. He may not be shuai, and hunky (like brad pitt?!), but he sure makes one hell of an actor. Yepz. SOTL was quite scary at times lah, but not as scary as other movies i've watched. But still really good. Haha. And yes, I WILL be sleeping tonight. Haha! Tmr night still got 'kate & leopald' so hang on tight guys! Bye!

Just close your eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to your heart
And that's where I'll be
If you just close your eyes
'Till you're driftin' away
You'll never be too far
From me
If you would close your eyes

Went to the cemtery today.. Paid respects to my maternal gramma and grampa. Yup. Gramma died when I was 5.(correction) I guess it was a mixture of diabetes and old age.. I didnt cry at the funeral.. I was just too young to realise anything.. You know she left when my family was on a holiday in Malaysia. Quit the tour halfway and rushed back to s'pore.. As for my grampa, never met him. After the thing, went to my uncle's place for dinner. It's a ritual lah, that our whole family goes somewhere, after the cemetery thing, to eat and hang out together. Yep. Played frisbee and monopoly with my cousins. Slept on a deck chair beside the pool too. Haha. Was so tired. Came back. Practiced. Still tired, so nitez guys.

I'm feeling so much beta now.
Thank you so much!!!

Had this really pathetic and pissing performance at pierce reservoir today.. In the morning.. It's for this ministry of envioronment function. Damn them to hell lah. Government workers are so smart. Let us play out in the OPEN.. And as you know it was RAINING this morning. Spastic right?!?! In the end we had shelter. But our instruments had to bear the drizzle for about 15min first.. And to get from place to place we still had to carry them in the rain. WAS SO PISSED!!! Wth. Whatever. Just hope-hope-hope not to much damage done to my (wonderful!!!) viola.. Grr.. At least they provided some food lah, but it quite sucked. For the programme we played all those same songs AGAIN, plus Dances of Transylvania, by Bartok(!!!). SYF piece! Haha. Yup. Remember all those parts where we practiced and practiced but could never get until, like, a few days before SYF!!! AND, we screwed up all of them today. =S Oh well. And because the stage was SO SMALL, we had one desk of violin 1s, one desk of vilin 2s, one desk of violas, ONE cello and ONE double bass. What is this man. The other people who came just slacked lah.. Wish I could.. Haiz. =( Poor (wonderful) viola. Came back to school and had rehearsal.. It's settled. We're playing Shostakovich's String Quartet No8 C-minor, 2nd movement, modified for string ensemble, for SYF next yr. Viola part is relatively easy, so everybody is swearing their guts out at us. =P Too bad man!! Haha. Viola section just rocks. Yeah! Went to KAP afterwards to have lunch with the new committee.. Had our 1st meeting.. Mmhmm. Came home. Slacked. Whee. Went down to play badminton, but my neighbour wasn't free, and i waited and waited one hr, nobody came. Oh well. Security guard came to lock up the place. Went home. Lucky i brought a book. So i didn't really waste my time!! Haha. Sooooo...... tired.. Stayed up so late last night.
Haiz. I'm so sorry I have to do this to you. ALWAYS remember what I said, and I wish you all the best.

Haha. Thanx for being there..
Someone to share my troubles with..
It helped so much.

I sometimes wonder
What I ever did to deserve this..
Am I really worthy
Of ur heart..
Hope I prove to be someone
Who wont let you down.
I'll give it all i've got.

=)

Today was great. Really great. Won't be forgetting this day for a long, long time to come. Yupz. =)

Woke up almost at 10. Did work. Seriously slogged liked I never did for such a long time.. Haha! But I did it with a happy heart. Mom was impressed. So when I asked her if I could go out during lunch she let me! Haha! But I still had to use lotsa time to persuade her. She's a tough nut to crack.. Haha! Went down to bustop opposite HCJC. Waited. Waited. Walked to coronation.. Walked back.. Walked to school and watched people playing soccer. Called lenard and found out he was in town. So walked back to the bustop again and took a bus.. Along the way.. Haha. =D Yup. Hecked care bout lenard. Went to cine, and waited somemore. But not in vain. Watched shrek 2. Was so damn funny. Antonio Banderras' mexican accent rocks. Eddie Murphy's as funny on-screen as he is off-screen. Haha. Then walked round Ngee Ann City.. Walk here walk there with no specific objective.. Just walked. And enjoyed. Took a bus home.. And along the way, got something.. Thank you so, so much.
Reached home, ate dinner. Practiced. My bro got me to shut up because he wanted to sleep. Wth. Hmph. Haha!

Thank you.
For your love,
For your trust,
For everything.
I love you so much too..
How can I describe it?
There is only so much
Words can express..

I definitely dun hold anything
Against you.
How can I bear to anyway?
Im not so hard-hearted! =)

Wasted my morning and half my afternoon. Went with my parents to walk on a trail at Bukit Timah. The hill's just at my back-door, btw. Quite literally. Haha. Yepz. Walked that path dunno how many times already, but my parents seem to enjoy it everytime. Cant tell you how sien I was. Damn lame lor.. Ah, wadever. Then went for lunch at Beauty World. This run-down little shopping centre. I think it's sustained only because of the hawker centre at the top floor, and the Shop & Save at the basement lor.. The whole place is empty most of the time.. But anyway, came home, slacked and then fell asleep. Goodness! Dunno why I was so tired. Slept until dinner. After dinner it was like, 8:30. I went to practice my (wonderful) viola (I call it J'Lo, btw). Played-played-played, then when I looked at the clock, omg!!! It was 11:00!!! Wow. A solid 2.5 hrs.. Ate some fruits my mom (or dad? haha!) prepared and heck care and played until 11:30. So it became 3 hrs. Funny, my hand don't really hurt much. But that's good cuz maybe I can do it again tmr!! Haha!

Haiyo, beyond all this.. Still got really worried.. Still am.

With loving you comes
So many worries,
So much anxiousness.
I may see it as a curse
But I'd rather see it as a blessing.
Cuz it's these things
That give life a meaning.

Stars. They shine.

Yo!

Yup, looked at them suites yesterday and decided to take no. 1. Just messaged Ernie to tell him. Okiez. Haha. Nothing much. Stay-home day. Gonna mug (like i promised =D) and maybe practice, play comp. The usual lah. Oh yah, still got TV. Haha! Ritez. Cya!

Lookin 4ward to tmr? Or thursday?
Haha! See how things fit!!

I wish that I could give more
Than juz words..
But everything that I say,
Every message I send,
Is a part of me
That I give to you.
Hope it really helps lah.
You make me
Me.
I'm the luckiest guy in the world.