Went down to Holland Village yesterday. Before that, got to school at 6pm, and a bus took us there. It's for some crap function.. Dunno wad its for, and I dun care anyway. I guess it's just for the amusement of the neighbourhood. And i'm sure they were very amused.. Lemme see.. The programme included us, malay dancers and some 4o+ yr old people doing acrobatics? And on a make-shift stage. With microphones that screech (you know those ear-piercing, high pitched sounds?) right in the middle Marcus' violin solo part in divertimento 1st movement? Whee. So exciting. Rolls eyes. Lenard and me were walking round before the performance. Bought 2 ice-creams each.. Couldn't resist.. Haha. He wanted to buy something for *ahem* birthday.. Hahaha! But didn't in the end cuz the thing he wanted wasn't in good condition, and there was no more stock. He'll go back again on tuesday, I think. Haha. When we got back, they were giving out balloons, so poor bored us coped a few and amused ourselves by releasing them and watching them fade away into the distance. Was commenting on how fun it would be if they still filled them balloons with hydrogen last time, until they found out the "mind-blowing" effects.. Hahaha! Ate chicken rice for dinner. Was provided by those organizers, I think. Then went to the mama-shop and shared a litre carton of choc-milk with lenard. Nai-shen (milk-god). Hahaha! Was tuning my (wonderful) viola, all alone, when I bumped into some despo malay gals.. They were like, giggling at me and whispering among themselves. Said 'hi' out of courtesy and one of them told me in the face "You are very handsome. Sure got a lot of girlfriends." I was like.. Huh?! I don't even know you!!! And I got out of there mighty quick. Got into the safety of the orch-guys. Phew. Didn't meet them face-to-face after that. Luckily. Was in syf dress. Black long sleeves and black long pants. Supposed to wear black shoes, but mine had some blue on it. No tie. Lucky man, otherwise would have been sweating like crazy!! Played with our shirt tucked out! Haha! But goh allowed us to anyway. Performed the same pieces.. Nothing much except the screeching mike. Goh said he was surprised the viola pizz in groovy strings was hearable. Hah! =) My parents turned up. They watched half the performance. Boarded the bus and went back to school. Took a lift from lenard home from there. Back home, chatted with him on the phone and went to sleep.

Woke up at 9.30am today, ate breakfast and stuff, then went to Westmall with my family to watch Troy!! Haha! It was nice. But the rumours about Brad Pitt are true though.. He's not a very good actor!! Yepz. The theatre was empty! Only enough people to fill, like, 1 and a half rows! Oh well. But anyway, enjoyed the movie.. Halfway through, got a message, and was really worried all the way till now.. Haiz. Hector is cool. He rocks. Stupid Achilles just had to kill him.. Orlando Bloom was using the bow again. Just like Legolas in LOTR.. Haha. Hollywood. Then there was the Boromir actor also.. Dunno his name. Haha! I come out from movies not knowing all the names!! Yupz. Troy's good all right. Came home. Bathed. Went to school for viola lesson. Went there half an hour early cuz i didn't check my time-slot properly.. Oh well. Played nonsense during the lesson. Yuck. Ernie didn't scold me but all the same im still pissed at myself. Gave me somemore killer etudes. Each one is worst then before lor! Gave me Bach suites also. Have until next week to choose one. 1, 2 or 3? Haha! Choices, choices. Anyway, came home and played comp. Ate dinner, and I wanna catch Deep Impact NOW!!! Haha. Will practice later. Wanna dedicate this hols to my (wonderful) viola.

Cya peeps!

Haiz. TAKE CARE OK!!!
I'm always worrying bout you.
Not that it's your fault.
It's my fault
That i love you so much.

Today woke up at 6:30.. Haiz. So early! Went to school and performed for Singapore Math Olympiad Primary (SMOP) kids. So sien k. Outside the Kah Kee hall.. So hot. Played Haydyn divertimento in D groovy strings and thoroughly modern varnish. Been playing these songs for goodness knows how long!!! Then went back, had a break, and rehearsed until 11am. Went for a 3-half hour lunchbreak. Went to coronation. In the rain. Got mighty drenched man. Ate then went back to school. Played soccer! Haha! At 2:30pm we made our way to HCJC auditorium to perform for those little SMOP twerps again. SAME SONGS. AGAIN. Wth. Then went back to orch room and played some illegal soccer inside. It's 'illegal' cos we're not supposed to play inside the room! Shh..! Haha! Got an orch T-shirt liao. Didn't get it cos it was given out during camp in march hols, but I wasn't in s'pore then. Then came home lor. Then came home, bathed, blahblah. Ate and went out with my dad to sell off our old computer to some second-hand electronics store in Bugis. It came to $40. Forty bucks?! I was like.. Erm.. Haha. Anyway, my pa told me it was a good price, cuz that comp is reallyreally old. So yeah. Then walked round Bugis with him. Went Bugis Junction to check out some sports stuff. Ate some durian. Haha! It was like, watery cuz it was over-ripe. Oh well. Walkedwalkedwalked somemore then came back. Played comp. Tired liaoz. Nitez everybod! Gonna catch up on sleep this hols!!

Hope things get well soon with ya.
Smile, dun 4get!
And sleep too. Haha!
Take care.

Hey guys.
Got damn pissed today man. And I mean wanna-get-onto-the-street-and-punch-somebody kinda pissed. But before that, school lasted 3periods. Then we had end of term activities, or EOTA for short. I took fencing. Haha. Bus driver took his time, reached bout an hour late. Did a crash course before we sparred. And my sparring partner hit me so hard on my thigh, I bled. Wth. Ouch. Oh well. Then went back to school for string practice. That's where I got pissed. You know we have 2 gigs tomorrow and 1 more on sunday, and our responsible and efficient conductor TOLD US ONLY TODAY?! F***! What the hell is his bloody problem?!?! I have seen this kinda shit coming from him ever since day1. And that's not all. HE BLAMES US WHEN THINGS GO WRONG. Oh yeah, like it's our fault that we screw up a little when you tell us of a concert one day before right?! I have had enough. There are other reasons im pissed too. Playing in a sub-standard orchestra with egotistic individuals who think they're too good to practice and/or shut-the-hell-up during rehearsals don't help a cock either. LET ME TELL YOU THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TOLERATE ALL THIS SHIT!!! I have more than half a mind to quit this bloody, stinking blood-sucking organization and SPENT MY TIME IN MORE PRODUCTIVE PURSUITS!!! Told my chairman a few weeks ago that I did not want to have any part in the next committee elections. And I have not regretted my decision. Spend my time on a hopeless case? Dream on. I got other dreams I wanna catch.

Tired. Hols are finally here. Whee. Would be jumping for joy if I weren't so f***ing pissed.
Sleep.

Sorry if this thing's vulgar. Can't help it.

I wonder how I would be taking all this,
If I didn't knew I had ur love to lean upon
When all seems hopeless.
Hugs. Love you.

Today was a little screwed up. The whole day was just chemistry and math.. BORING!! English teacher's been absent from monday till today.. She went Malaysia to give some sorta talk. Chinese teacher left Singapore yesterday to take part in some international impromptu speech competition. Wow. Supposed to have free periods but chem and math teachers so enthu, came and took over the lessons.. Left with only one free period today. Oh well. Slept through it. On the floor. With my bag as a pillow. Felt really good. Haha! Have some greyish-black stuff stuck on my hand from chem prac. Cannot wash off!! =/ Came home and SLACKED. Really slacked like crazy. Haha. Still got some chemistry homewrk to do!! Urgh.
Some stuff happened lah. Wth. Don't like it one bit.

I'll always be worryin bout you
Simply cuz i love you.
I'll be here k
If ever you need someone.

And That Is All

When I first met you,
I found you quite good-looking.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
Did have a few instances
When we exchanged
A word or two.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
I didn't even know your name
Even though
It had been mentioned to me
A couple of times.
I would never
Have anything to do with you.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
Then came a time,
When you waited
For me
After something.
I was surprised
And was happy too.
For I had found
A friend in you.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
Then came that day,
When we were together
The whole time.
Your sincerity and friendliness
Touched me
Deep down inside
And suddenly,
I felt myself
Slipping
From my perch of comfort
Which I had got to
After so much hardship,
Pain, and suffering.
Slipping
Back to my former life
Of guessing-games
And groundless fantasies
That I was never sure
Would come true
Or not.
It was just a passing feeling.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
The feeling never left.
But it got stronger
And stronger
Everyday.
Our meetings
Only made the feeling
Grow.
Stronger.
For better
Or for worse,
I knew not.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
I found myself one day,
Conversing with you about
Past loves,
Past heartbreaks,
Past struggles.
And the conversation
Moved on.
And before I knew it,
We were talking
Of current loves.
And I was speaking of you,
To you.
And you did not know it.
And you were telling me
Of a guy
You liked.
So the conversation continued.
I was devastated.
But yet we continued.
And then
I couldn't take it anymore.
And I admitted
My love
For you,
To you.
I condemned myself
To a repetition of history.
Past loves,
Past heartbreaks,
Past struggles,
Came back to me,
Like they happened
Only yesterday.
Tears welled up in my eyes
And soon they fell.
And in my heart,
I sounded a yell
Of agony
For no one to hear.
And that was all.
Or so I thought.
You replied.
And your reply
Wiped my tears away.
I was filled with
Joy.
I fell on my knees
And thanked God.
Couldn't believe
It had actually happened.
And I remember
Like it happened
Only yesterday.
And that is all.

I love you.

There was Australian English Competition today after school. Almost the whole level took. We went to LT4. My class was lucky. Were allocated seats WITHOUT lecture tables.. Had to use a file to write on. It was so easy to cheat lor! But i didn't. Comon lah! AEC cheat for what?! Haha! And this kinda australian comp things are always SO easy anyway. Haha! Went for secionals. Goh told me to give them Groovy Strings. Was able to play it after 5 minutes. Bah. Easy. But its hell for the others cuz counting is hard.. So.. Haha. Was hurling insults at violin 2 and Dun Jie!!! Was so damn funny! Hahaha! He took over the job as SL cause Kevin and ZhenRong weren't around. But its all in the name of fun lah. Don't take it too seriously guys! I didn't. And i was the winning party most of the time anyway, so yeah! =P Haha! Then played soccer (with a tennis ball!!!) in the orch room with marcus, zhengwei, man loke and nick png. Was going home when i saw frens at the soccer court playing some real soccer. Couldnt resist and joined in!! Haha! Luckily mom didn't kill me for reaching home so late.. Did some homework.. Haiyo, I've been slacking so much since OBS.. Heck lah. Hols are coming, cant wait!!

One smile makes a hell of a difference to me.
So keep smiling!
Wish you all the happiness in the world.
Cuz I cant bear to see you sad too.

Today was fun. Haha. I mean, any time where you can skip school's gotta be fun rite?! Haha! So I went to change after first period. Came back, and the teacher was shocked to see me in SYO shirt and ACSI pants! Haha! First stop was Clementi Town. The hall was so nice! Floor was in good condition. Played the same stuff in the lunch-time concert at VCH.. So sien. Have to sit there while the winds and brasses play. Wong Ho Chong and the other guy (What's his name ar? Mr Foo or sonething?) giving corny speeches again "chair-lows" and "vai-yo-leans".. Handel was so soft cause everybody was hamchi, didn't dare to play all those semi-quavers. Vivaldi had the "duo-solos" screwing up their parts too. Cello solo was.. Soft. Viola 2 solo was rushing!! Brahms. Lousy syncopation on the viola's part.. Haiz. We were not following the conductor!! Nobody was following the dynamics in Tchaikovsky. Haiya. Whatever. Second performance was at Pei Tong. This hall was PATHETIC! The hall was also the canteen lor! And it was hot. Tired. Napped during the winds and brass. Haha! This time was better lah, but still, the same mistakes popped up. Bus took us back to CCAB. Took a bus back to school. Viola lesson. Me and Ernie talked a lot! Were talking more than playing. Haha. Then i went to orch room to deposit my viola. Didn't wanna bring it home cos there's sectionals tmr. Walkied by the street soccer court and found out my team had a match due in 2 more games. Haha! Played in concert dress. Was the keeper and FUMBLED!!! SO BLARDY MALU YOU KNOW!! Yup. We lost. Haiz. Came home. Gonna bathe, do my work. Maybe gonna practice my violin if I have the time. Haha.

Feel so much different when im around you!
May not show it when im with you,
But believe me, I love you.
God is my witness.

Woke up early to go for mass.. Choir was, as usual.. Ahem.. Don't wanna give any furthur comment.. "Conductor" was looking like a mad chimp from the zoo again.. Haha.. =P Then went for cathechism(sunday class/bible study, wadever you call it. i call it "cat").. Crapped around lah. Amanda's (teacher) mom came. Haha. Jevon (another tcha) was overseas, graduating. Then all the cat people went out to watch Shrek 2, but i didn't. Got lotta stuff! Everybody call me 'dao'.. Wth. Hmpf. Came home, and slept. Tired k. Studied chem. Heck bout math lah. It can go to hell lah, dunno wad type of shit topic.. Oh well. Practiced violin. Tryin to play Mendelssohn Violine E-minor 3rd movement.. Crazy.. Haiz.. I cant lah. Then went my grandma's house. Watched tv. The whole time. Sien. Came back and practiced viola. Haha. Yawnz. SYTO outreaching concert tmr. Can skip sch. Yay! =D

Love you, and you know it.
But I juz cant seem to tell you enough.
Good night!

Ensemble practice ended early yesterday, cuz of Pro-ed Consortium night. And Goh SJ is in Pro-ed, so we ended at 4:30pm. People were better today. Didn't piss me off again.. Haha. Playing Mendelssohn's Twelve String Symphonies. They're just etudes.. Whatever. Sight-readable. Planning for a concert in December at Esplanade Recital Studio. Lame. Lousy place.. And as if we'll be able to play like that. I mean, take a look at our orchestra. Some cant even play a 2-octave C-major scale in tune.. Gonna be in very deep shit for next year's SYF..

"Lunch-time Concert" at VCH today. For all those primary school kiddies. Went at 9 o'clock for a pre-concert rehearsal. As usual, Wong Ho Chong gave her corny speeches before the performances.. "..and this is a chair-low (cello). As you can see, it is too big for you to put on your chin, so you place them between your legs." Haha! Strings played Handel Overture, Vivaldi Four Violins, Brahms 5th Hungarian Dance and Tchaikovsky waltz from Sleeping Beauty. Pathetic performance. Counting wrongly, out of tune.. All the mistakes an orchestra can make, we managed to do it. Heck lah. Took bus back home. Slept almost all the way. Reached home, ate, practiced my violin, went for violin lesson. Then we went to eat with our relatives to celebrate my grandma's birthday. She's 86. Wanted to play pool with my bro, but parents didn't let.. Hmph. Haha. Came back. Gonna sleep. Sunday classes resume tmr.

I'll stand by you as long as I can,
To let you know your presence
Is treasured by at least one person.
Let's hold on.

School was slack today.. Chemistry was hell. Teaching us some JC1 stuff. Couldn't understand a thing! Just sat on the chair and stoned, copied down notes that i didn't even half-understand.. Wadever. Then came assembly. Slack. Really. 2 hrs of just sittin there and sleeping with your eyes open. Wee. Math. Stoned again. Last lesson was chinese. The teacher was just teaching us the rules of a chinese debate for the whole lesson.. The WHOLE lesson. Haha. Oh well. They were doing fogging after school today. Got caught in the middle of it. Phew! Stinks man! Retreated back to the classroom. Slacked on the class-comp. Then i went to the orch room and started fooling around with somebody's violin. Then my soccer match. Forgot to bring PE shirt, but managed to borrow from Yong Jing (thanx pal!). And you know what? WE WON! WTH?! That was like, so unexpected! 2-nil. Both our goals were tyco ones.. Haha! Oh well. Came home bathed, ate and went to church. It's Ascension Day today, see. Came home, did MRP. Due tmr. Hope it turns out good.. But how good can a Ctrl+c Ctrl+v job get anyway. Haha.

Pray4u. Always have.
Wake up everyday feeling blessed cuz of you.
Love ya.

Nothing much today. SS teacher said she didn't have anything left to teach, so we got a free lesson. English teacher also didnt come. Two periods. Woah. But one of them still got gobbled up by math.. SO there was, like, THREE periods of math today?! Is that a little crazy or what? And i thought it was more of a moral-ed. lesson anyway. But nvm. Haha. Went to the LT for the other supposed english period. Air-con! Was supposed to do a compo, but ended up scraping paint off my watter bottle. Sien la. Haha. Filed up my chinese file at the last minute.. Hope its gonna get passed or i'll be a very screwed little boy.. Or pig. Haha. Assembly period was moved to tomorrwow. Found out that my street soccer team was gonna have a match in the afternoon. Clashed wif my viola lesson! But the match got postponed till tmr, so all's well. Haha. My team sux la, so i don't expect us to go far anyway. Lesson was fine. I thought it ended all so soon cuz Ernie and i were talking.. Taught me theory stuff again. My theory sux to the core, like, totally dude. Haha! Yepz. I wanna go watch Troy!

Nursery rhymes rock. So do you.
Luv ya! Swear. =)

Went HC string ensemble's Inspirations at VCH yesterday. Circle was almost full, but the stalls were like, so empty. Very poor thing lor, nobody go watch. Haiz. Haha. Herbert (AKA. Bert-bert) kept on misplacing my tickets!!! Hmph. Haha. Luckily got them intact otherwise i'd kill you! Ha! =P Went home after school, then went Kap with Zhiwei. Were supposed to eat, but my mom force-fed me at the the last minute.. So she got a take-away. Met Andris (oink! =P Dun be too angry k, juz kidding!) who had our tickets. Andrea came. Was waiting for Chi High SO guys. They took stalls, but I took circle, cuz stalls quite suck. Met Zhao Han, Jing Xun (I Choose You! =P Dun sit on me again like in p-sch! Ha!) Yi Zhe, Jon Lim, Ivan Goh also.
Thought the concert was quite good, but there were a few mistakes along the way.. Tee Tong screwed up quite a number of her solos, Arif (lent him MY silver tie. beta be thankful! dun 4get ur lil' junior!), you were so rough in the quartet! Andrea kept on saying Dvodrak sounded 'sexy'. Ahem. Right. Haha! Herbert nodding his head in time like a metronome! Haha! So funny! Liked Mozart. Was nice. Haha. You know, after Elgar, a violin 2 went outta tune, and Ernie (Go Mr Tan! Haha! =D He got another Sesame Street Ernie soft toy after the concert!) stepped off the podium and went to tune it. Was damn funny! Went backstage during intermission and after the concert. Met a lot of Chi High seniors who went HCJC. Haha. Real fun. After, walked to esplanade and took 171 wif ZW.

Sectionals today. Typical one. Shouting cuz the room was noisy, yah. Played chinese chess during a break. Got thrashed by PRCs.. Oh well. Haha.

Need to do MRP and file my chinese file! Mountain of math wrksheets! Crap. Grr.. Hope im gonna survive. Haha.

Came back frm obs on friday.. Now i really look like an Indian.. Dark like crazy.. Haha! Anyway

Day 1
Went to school to catch the coach. Funny. Whole school no flag-raising. That's not something that happens everyday. Haha. Waited in the mild morning sun for half an hour before the bus came. Took us to Punggol jetty. Waited there for so long. And it was hot. No shade! Arrived in camp (Was in mobile, btw). Briefing, and met my instructor Melissa. Nice gal, bout 25. University fresh-grad. Wanna know what my watch (group) was called? Nila Utama. WTH. Ew. So gay. Anyway we got our rations for the next 5 days. Biscuits, bread and other dried stuff.. Ew. Still dunno how I survived on such crap for so long. Haha! Play human-entanglement =) Did some kayaking. Pitch tent, cook dinner then went to sleep. Tried sleeping on the parade square. They didnt switch on the floodlights so i was quite invisible in the dark. But clever me just had to stand up for no reason and get caught.. Oh well. Haha. Mosquito coil proved its worth for the first time. Stars were great.

Day 2
Had some climbing lessons called "belaying". A belayer is a person who holds the other end of the rope ya attached to, so if you fall, we dont have to scrape your insides off with a butter knife if somehow you fall.. Haha. HOT. After that packed our stuff and trekked to a new campsite. This one really sucked. The ground was full of rocks and stones.. Couldnt drive the tent pegs into the ground.. They ended up looking like fishing-hooks. The 'toilet' was in the bushes, and there were loads of huge red ants in there. No way am i goin to pee in there, baby. No place to bathe. Went to sleep stinking and sweaty. Disgusting. Mosquito coil proved its worth again. Stars were excellent.

Day 3
Was made watch IC today.. Dunno why the all thought i was capable of leadin them. Anyways. Woke up and trekked to yet another campsite. Had rock climbing, and after lunch somemore high elements activities. Cooking area for dinner was beside the beach. Damn nice. Saw the sun set. Wow. Haha. Had a briefing on the sea expedition for the next day. Instructor made it sound so dangerous, but actually it wasnt. Gonna paddle round Ubin. Stars rocked.

Day 4
Woah. This day totally totally rocked my socks off. Sea expedition. Paired up with another string orch guy. At first we were so loserfied, keep on turning round in circles. But when we got the hang of it, WOW. We were damn fast lor! Rocked the world man. Haha. Can even overtake trackers in the throwing events. Si bei zai. Haha! =D We started off late cuz of lightning risk, but we finised the trip early lor! Really zai. And plus, nobody capsized. Song boh. Heh. This is where i got sunburnt. And after that my arms were like jelly. Couldnt even hold up the mess tin properly during dinner. Left arm was really bad. Haha. But it was really fun la. Had the first satisfying dinner. Instant noodles and some curry chicken.But it was passable la. Haha. Did cleaning up. Washed bags, mess tins and other equipment. Stock check. Lost a lotta stuff.. Terence, you gotta buck up k? Think bout yourself and never give up. You can never tell the worth of a man. Get ur dignity back! Stars were superb.

Day 5
Got up and immediately screamed at my watch members to "bloody wake up". The faster we packed up, the sooner we got to go. Washed our tents, did another stock check. Found back many items that we supposed we lost. Heng ah. The lost items bill ended up pretty small. Each person only had to pay 70cents. Washed one of the toilets. Disgusting. There was literal shit on the floor.. But we managed to do it. Debriefing. Got back our surrendered items (wallets, handphone etc.). Took boat back to Punggol jetty. No transport provided by the scool frm there k! Wth.. Great plannig, huh. >=( Took bus 82 to Punggol MRT station, took MRT to Newton, then took 171 home. Came back to find the house empty. Waited an hour before my mom came. Haiz.

Overall it was quite fun la. Pretty screwed up at times but still can. Haha!

Look at the stars at nite,
Cuz i'll b lookin at e same ones 2.

k. going obs tmr. gonna miss all u guys. thanx for all the advise chow. haha. gonna slp early tonite.. tired. had a nap this afternoon, but still.. hmm. sorry there, ivan. but, pls, ok? yep. no hard feelins!

cya!

sports meet wif NY n HC todae.. was so bored thruout the thing.. was watching pple playin chi chess, catchin some sleep on the slope.. chs guys playin chapteh there, makin a fool of emselves.. its pple lyk this dat makes us a lame sch lor!! den went to do some labellin in the orch room.. strained my left hand.. my tendons i think.. cant play for sometime.. lucky goin obs.. haha. ouch. and damn lucki my violin lesson was cancelled too. met kaixuan. (long time no see!!) NY gals were sellin drinks n snacks for charity.. din buy any cuz im quite broke.. mebbe cuz some pple still havent pay me for the BeyondBoundaries tix yet rite..! grr.. hmpf. =P um.. mrs loi damn zai.. finish markin physix paper so fast lor.. gotit back yesterday.. 60, on-the-dot.. yuck.. pathetic.. see la, never study la!! =S haha! oh no. din get anythin for mom's day! forgot! ah!

i'd never sink as low as you.
meet ya in hell.
Haha! ;p